i go out of my way to help people, be nice, be there for them etc etc bla bla fucking bla. where's my goddamned shoulder? who's going to catch me? i'm sick of being shut out, left in the lurch, abandoned, being forgotten about.
it's not fucking worth it.
to the people who fucking cast me aside... if i see you hurt on the street, I won't even bend down to help you up. i'll call from help from your cellphone and then keep it. fuck you.
Can it be? Can this heavy, black cloud that's hung over my like some ancient death shroud finally began to abate?
Not yet.
But it is appearing to be more gray, which is a good thing.
More to come.
bah. the week was a waste if not droll.
at least babysitting was fun. the last 2 days i babysat the kids of a friend from college. the kids loved me and actually crying when i left.
halloween is coming. yay.
Mommy dearest in her infinite fucking wisdom said she won't buy any more butter. Why? Because I use HALF of a fucking TEASPOON when making rice. Ahh.. hello? It adds better flavor than regular cooking oil. She says butter should only be used for toast. She even fucking yelled, whined and cursed me off when I contradicted her that butter is used for recipes, not just toast. fucking idiotic bitch. fucking goddamned, drama queen cunt.
yeah. this is the shit i have to endure. yeah, thank you people of albany (especially one in particular) for forcing me to move back home. you fucking ruined everything.
